Self-denial is a virtue of the highest quality, and he who has it not, and does not strive to acquire it, will never excel in anything”. John Coneybeare
Self-denial is indulgence of a propensity to forego”. Ambrose Bierse
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Love yourself. i hated it. i hated it hearing so much, i forgot what it meant.
thank you mom, for being in tune with me. thank you delayed visa issue, for giving me such a year of letting me know myself more. surprised me to think that somehow, i managed to overlook the real sense of adoring your - SELF.
too many people are allowed to manipulate this part of us called ourselves. how does it happen?
selfish, egocentric, self-glorifying. words all too generally designed to hit you where pushing & pulling never stops until it hurts. i've been a bitch for what i do, a bitch for what i don't do, and when i happen to be learning the ropes from in-between, well then i'm just a bitch for not knowing which direction to go, or what the hell i want to do. but a year has passed, when i was thrown away to the social world and only allowed to enter for a few times. enjoying myself. i barely do not know what turned me into this not so idyllic world that even i didn’t know i was not myself for a long time. going with the flow made me change my own views and duplicate theirs. i do not have anything to stand on for all i know i just want to be with them and i don’t want to make a fuss out of something. well, things could get fucking worse when you are scared to voice out your view and see yourself looking at things from their ‘own’ point of view.
Love yourself is not just your last song syndrome you could just easily forget when a new one comes along. Love yourself is not a stone you throw into the ocean when you just unconsciously want to have fun. Loving yourself is believing that it’s all right to love the crazy and the great things others love about you, or that you are someone who has friends who loves you, even if you yourself are wondering why.
no one is perfect, but there rises the word: ideal.
it’'s knowing to want to be great, if not just better, and great, like the rest.
it’s surrounding yourself with positive people and letting go of negative ones, but still you treat them with respect.
it’s okay to jump to opportunities and take risk because you know you can do it, and it never hurts to try. it’s doing what you really want, never mind what others might say, and not joining that club just because most of your friends are there. it talks about YOU and you ONLY.
what you do right now is for you. and what you do is for your growth. blending in with what they want does not make yourself grow, for you’re just after the bond. you do not grow. no one should ever have to power to manipulate you, to pressure you what you must do. it’s yourself and only you knows what you want. don’t be afraid to let out that voice. because if you are, you are entering the world not yours.
there is a bigger picture in the world for each one of us & we are all specks of dust in the end. what you do with your life now can outlast you later on.loving that one person, loving anyone, and most of all, learning to love yourself, is not anything that love is not.
and you know what? if you find Love, there's your God.xx.r <3
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